Lately I’ve been reading the book Soul Detox by Craig Groeschel. In it Craig talks about the various poisons and toxins that affect our souls and spirits and damage who we are and our relationship with God. There are different kinds of harmful substances. Some are practices. Some are the kinds of media we consume. And others are emotions. Those inner voices that we listen to that maybe we shouldn’t. One of those voices that really jumped out at me? Fear.
I have known for a while now that I have a problem with fear and a particular kind of fear at that. I guess you would call it a fear of failure. It is more like a fear of inadequacy. I often find myself afraid of not doing things well enough. It is a battle with perfectionism. And this battle often leads to a type of paralysis in me that results in very little getting done. And what does get done is not as good as it could be, thereby only reinforcing my fear.
Follow that crazy-train of thought?
This is part of why I loved Jon Acuff’s book Start. It is right there in the subtitle “Punch Fear in the Face.” One of the things Jon recommends is keeping a “fear journal.” In it you write out those crazy things fear often tells you. I did that today for the first time and here is what I wrote in my journal:
“Fear says I can always start later. Then, when I start it says I should have started sooner. Make up your mind fear! Which is it?”
Jon was right. Fear is schizophrenic. Whatever it takes to get you to not do what you are called to do. Fear is a poison to our soul that needs to be removed by the grace and peace of Christ.
As you go about your day, may you be free from fear. May you remember that often times the most powerful thing you can do to “punch fear in the face” is to simply start. Start doing what it is that God called you to do. Start it today. Even if it is only for 5 or 10 minutes. Some beats none every time.